Undo by Rush Of Fools

While browsing through imeem.com, I bumped into this Christian track which I find to be one of my personal favorites from now on...

UNDO - by Rush of Fools

I've been here before, now here I am again
Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in
To label me a prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You?re the only one who can undo
What I've become

I focused on the score, but I could never win
Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You?re the only one who can undo
What I've become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You?re the only one who can undo
What I've become

Road Crash Deja Vu

It was awful to come across two road accidents today. At 5:45AM this morning, I was riding in a bus going to work when soon enough; a picture of an immobile body appears before my eyes. Two motorcycles crashed into a pick-up truck while trailing the curve of the Governor’s Drive going to Dasmarinas. As the bus slows down, my eyes are wide awakened with the scene of seemingly lifeless men in the road. I felt horrible about the incident, what if that person is one of your friend or relative. I don’t want to see people in the process of dying. It’s just too painful to see even if you do not know them. To compose myself again, I closed my eyes and pray to God to have mercy on those people, if there is still an inch of life with them, let Him shed mercy for those men to live.

The 2nd accident happens just a few meters from the spot of the accident this morning, and it happened in the afternoon between 4~5:30 PM. It’s like déjà vu, I was suddenly awakened again. I would normally sleep on trips going to and fro back home. It makes me wonder what’s in this day………

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Life is short in deed, and our stay on earth is indefinite, we don’t know when it is time for us to leave this place……and therefore we should live it to the fullest with a life that gives glory to the Father, so whenever that time is, we are assured that we have made our purpose here on earth.

Thankful on a Sunday...

Sunday once again, and the day is about to end, a new day will begin in a few minutes. As I wrote this, I am thinking of thanking God for keeping us safe all throughout the day, for His unending love and his just-in-time blessings. No one ever comes really mighty than You, and I will praise You Lord forever.

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My eyes are very heavy now. I was a bit tired but the day is worthwhile coz we have managed to went into Mamavic's father's wake. I was a bit nervous coming in, afraid we won't catch any of them there and yet we don't know anybody except them. Glad there's her, Mamu is still home sleeping. We stayed there for a couple of hours until Mamu arrived. Chat a little bit with her and we bid goodbye to go home, its getting late and we will travel back to our provinces. Good thing the expressway is clear, I reached home @ 9PM.

Thinking of all the circumstances around, with the gels and all other kaboks, I was just amazed that we are this bonded together. It was only a past time back then when I started posting in our thread. I never imagined that we could reach this far of bonding...of course, we are like a family...and families share each other's burden, from laughter to sorrows... And I'm just glad that God's leading passes by in this point in time. I learned a lot from these new people I've met, and I thank the Lord for them as He uses to teach me real things in life...

Let it fall, Let it go....and Let God...

Let thy glory fall…let it fall…fall upon us Lord...


Perhaps this Saturday morning was one of the most haunting moments that strucked me. I was going to sleep after a long day from attending my friend’s wedding when I received an SMS message from Mamavic. It was unexpected that it’ll be about the sad news of their loss of a father. My first thoughts is that it was expected in life, and it is a fact, but what struck me is the underlying force behind that text message. I don’t know what’s in it, the way she express the news thru a short message, seeking for our prayers for the eternal repose of her father’s soul, as she said, they are not expecting it this fast.

Though I don’t really believe in the eternal repose of a man’s soul after death, because as the Bible teaches us, a man is saved by his faith and acceptance of Jesus Christ as his Saviour, and nobody can do it for a man except himself. I just thought that it was perhaps true for Mamavic’s father, he is with his Creator now. God will surely take care of him.

My tears don’t really fall when somebody died…even when my closest grandma suddenly passed away due to stroke on a New Year’s Day, my tears can’t fall down. My heart was sad, I knew it, though I can’t cry no matter how I try. I am in grief seeing my own mother in pain for the loss, but still I can’t cry. I am in denial of my tears, or should I say I have told my eyes not to cry because if I did, I couldn’t stop it anymore…that’s what I hate about me….

And now, all of a sudden, the tears that I’ve been keeping from falling down fell. I couldn’t remember when I last cried because of the loss of a person. For other reasons, yes I do cry, but for grieving for somebody departed, I don’t as much as I can. I guess everybody hates goodbyes, especially if you really love the person.

I felt a clinch in my heart when I learned Mamavic’s news, and I really felt sad for them. The girls and I treated them as family already. Suddenly, it seems all the pain I’ve been hiding from the loss of the people close to me came through that moment. I was crying, until I felt asleep, and I can’t stop myself, even if I came back to reality of this day where I was supposed to be happy. I do let go of them, as I let God take them from us, and I am letting go of the pain and burden…maybe I cried because I am now missing them, as the loss of Mamavic’s father reminded me of them.

The thought of my own father crosses my mind too, and I am missing him suddenly. For years now, I could only count with my fingers and toes how long we have been together, we have to live separately so we can overcome our financial difficulties through him working overseas.

Oh well, I am just a sentimental person…And for Mamavic, I was so grateful knowing you and your sister, you made a good cheer with us, sharing your life as somebody who likes SG as we do, and somebody who accepted us as we are. We felt your warmth and we love you as well though we knew each other for just a while. Whatever happens in life, even if it’s so fast that we could not comprehend its reasons, God always works for the good of us his children, and He heals us every time we hurt. And I will always pray for your healing, comfort and strength…Jesus’ grace abounds in you….

Welcoming my 2008

I feel great leaving 2007 and entering 2008. Feels like there's so much more to look forward to. Hope fills the air, and joy overshadows the loneliness i've had.

I only learned today that this is the year of the Mickey Mouse :D

Thanks 2007, I've met Sarah in person, and all the other good people I became friends with. The cyberworld can really be a break or make place, we just need to learn where it is good to stay or not :D

Cheers to everyone!