Thursday, December 31, 2009

If Only Hope

Almost closing time for 2009...and here comes the new year 2010...thank God and I'm still alive after a lot of stuggles. As our pastor said, 2009 is the year of the fullness of God's blessings...and lo and behold, its really the fullness when the most unexpected blessings come. 2010 is said to be the year of the miracles...forget about the years of the animals coz we are humans and not animals; so I would say it'll be indeed a Year of the Miracles for God will unfold His glory...changing lives from one degree to another.

If only time can be brought back to correct our mistakes, I could've done it long time ago. But every year, I kept having my New Year's Resolution and end up failing to suceed in doing them. I wish its possible, but there's just things that don't come as we expect them; and in the way we want them to be. God always has His Ways...and His we know are always good. I believe that the new year coming will be a changeover point in my life. Love will conquer evil...real faithful love will go beyond borders...hope and grace will make me live again.

No regrets now...things in the past can't be undone...but our future is in our hands to look forward to and work onto...

I just wanna say to my most loved know who you are...that I cling into HOPE, FAITH and GRACE for the change I want to have...and you will stay as a significant part of this life inspite of it all....

God help us....

Saturday, May 9, 2009

I'll Stand By You

I wanna hear it over and over again...probably its nice if Sarah G will sing this too in one of her ASAP stints...I don't know what's the title of this song until I got a chance to bump into this video of Carrie Underwood singing her cover in the American Idol finale....

"Nothing you confess...can make me love you less..." is probably the most profound lines in this song. PJ would always say this to His love is so profound that no one can fathom how great it is...

When you do love somebody....nothing that the person confesses can make you love him or her less...and its a great love...

Sunday, February 8, 2009

A Dose of a Breather

Today's Sunday is so far one of the finest breather I had. Though there were some sorts of irking at the house, it became a nice time for me and my sister to enjoy the cool weather we've been longing for months now. It was a breather from the extremely low temperature that Winnipeg is experiencing since November.

Winter is ending soon and its my first springtime here....before I bid goodbye to the season, here's some glimpse at the The Forks' Winter Park.



The skeletal branches of the tree seems to be raising its arms up to the heavens.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Turning Back

It's been a while, and I was so out of tune in almost everything about my faith. Its hard to start a life in a totally strange place, with everyone around misunderstanding each other. The good thing despite this is that there is a God who keeps loving us. Even if we forget all the best things He had given.

I should testify about it, as what I have been thought all throughout these years. But I never foresee that if your surroundings is against what is right, you'll need all stronghold bared before you to sustain your grip against the currents.

The torrents that my spiritual life had experienced is unexpected, and I am still pondering what happened to me. Now, I felt I'm being pulled out of the swamps where I stumbled upon. I know and I can really feel that no matter what I've done wrong, God still loves me. He doesn't want me to totally fall into the pit of profanity and deception.

Let me thank God again, because its really best to always turn to Him, and turn back to Him should we stumble.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

The Final Sale

Whenever we feel hurt and deeply affected by a certain circumstance, we do cry and tend to nourish hard feelings to those causing us pain. However, its no different if you are the one to cause pain to another person. They would tell you its ok, but you know well that they are not  fine. They are hurting and you can't do anything but to console them and apologize.

Hurting someobody is like when you buy an item with a "Final Sale" mark. You can only exchange the item for something that fits better, or something whole if its defective; but you can never ever return the purchased good to the store.

Saying or doing something that leaves a glitch into one's heart or soul can never be undone. You could cover it up with some consolations or making ups, but it will never be forgotten.

I just had my "Final Sale" with a close friend, and I am deeply affected. I know that friend of mine is not really ok. She's fine, but I know she's not, and I am really saddened by the fact that I cannot revert back what I had saide, because its just necessary. All the while, it suddenly came out of my mouth and I never noticed how fast it all happened.

I was just asking for somebody to pray for my circumstance the other day; God must have answered me quickly. Now I feel relieved, but I am depressed. I don't want to loose another friend because of something like this that should never happen in the first place. Though I know and she assured me that we'll be friends for life even if I caused her many hurts.

However, I feel that God might have put us in a fiery situation so that we would become a wiser person. Because sometimes, I don't want to learn unless I have experienced them. And now I have learned...most importantly these things: to stand up on what I believe, to say the hardest words to say, and to simply care unconditionally.


Today, I blog about it, and I'm a bit relieved, but still I can't help but think about it. If only I could see my friend at this moment and give her a hug so that she'll be comforted.

I could only pray to God to make her stronger and wiser. And promise that I will just be a call away in case she needs me....

Friday, January 2, 2009

First Month, Second Day

It's 2009, new year, new beginning, new chapters in life. I'm happy spending this new start with you...and tomorrow will be the 1st month mark. Just glad that we did made it through...

I'm feeling the jitters, but its unavoidable...and things won't change, because it's still all about us. My love is unchanged...and nothing can be done about it right now. The longing won't end...perhaps until we meet again.

My hope is for you to be safe and cheerful always. Think that you're not alone and I'll always be around to stand by you. I'll keep you for the rest the days....even if the part time things fade away...because you are the best among them all.

It's the second day of the first month, and it makes my 2009 sweeter than ever.

Thank you for everything. As always...